Friday, May 09, 2008

心境


Partly cloudy

晴時多雲

Partly clear

多雲時晴

本是參天高樹

莫畏浮雲煩憂

江湖凶險

心境使然

9 comments:

EyeDoc said...

Someone told me about your site. However, looking at the poem just now, you have apparently re-affirmed yourself. That is very good.

Without knowing exactly what happened to you. My guess that it was unfair publicity of a very difficult case.

A professor once told us, a physician who's never been sued simply means he/she has not seen enough patients. Looking at your blog, your surgical expertise seems to cover all sub-specialties. Quite unusual. Then it is natural to see unusual cases.

I just want to add one little episode: In 1980, the late Dr Charles Schepens was sued by someone injured by a shotgun that damaged his retinas. If not for Dr Schepens's skills, the patient would have remained counting finger OU. Yet, an unreasonable 20/20 was expected, hence the lawsuit. Dr Schepens of course won the case and went on to performing retinal surgery for many more years.

Indeed, a tall strong tree always stands upright.

Hang in there. It happens to the best of us.

blinddoc said...

eyedoc

看到大師 Dr Charles Schepens 的名字出現寒舍,甚感蓬蓽生輝。

最近接二連三承受許多折磨,病醫相處難免有猜疑,但最怕是莫須有的誤解。

恐懼悄悄佔據我行醫的思考,我無意識提防每位靠近我的病患家屬,深怕會有非理性的傷害。

隨著造訪人數的增加,我打字的疑慮上升了;如果我的手將醫師的工作無設防的披露,是否會將同業暴露在危險中?

醫療是份嚴肅的志業,我發現我再也無法輕鬆地寫了,也許該沉潛的時刻到了。

總之,謝謝您的發聲鼓勵。Salute!

Anonymous said...

寫詩是對的

我是因您的詩 才在這兒停留
不是因為您的美貌
也不是因為您的身材
也許您的善良讓我想多停一會兒
但可以肯定的是
您的醫術絕對不是最吸引我的(:P)


很神奇
少少的字
卻蘊藏無限想像...
(希望有一天 我也可以寫得跟您一樣棒!)

Bee said...

Dear doctor

好想請妳吃冰淇淋
再給妳一個大大的擁抱

對我而言
這個部落格
讓我對醫師的觀感有了很正面的提升

之前大多數的經驗
往往是..距離感+缺少溫度
從這裡開始
我試著去理解醫病關係之所以然與所以不然
試著去感受
理性不帶感情的專業敘述背後
也許正蘊藏如盲醫師般
纖細、動人、溫暖的心意

您的疑慮
令人心疼...
只能在心中默默為您祈禱
願上天厚愛良善如妳的好醫師

EyeDoc said...

It is clear that you are a conscientious surgeon doing her best under the most trying circumstances. Why being so discouraged? Through your blog, the readers (including the press) can get to know the human side of your profession. It can only promote more understanding.

Anonymous said...

醫業是很難的吧!

環境在變 人心也在變
"高道德"標準永遠是被人拿來指責醫師的工具

可以感受到您的無力與懷疑

只是想與您共勉
"這只是人生的一小部份"

在旅程不斷前進中 再辛苦的旅程
只會化作未來偶然回憶的片段

只有不斷的"放下" 才會有多餘的空間
放更重要的東西

陌生潛水客

blinddoc said...

沉默是因為話已經說得太多

還是無話可說?

心裡浮現太多問號

無法終結也找不到解答

........

感謝各位的善意

Anonymous said...

Dear 盲醫師

撐住!
加油!

Anonymous said...

一直想問候學姊,順便感謝學姊幫我收拾那麼多爛攤子,然後就看到這幾篇~嗯,學姊加油。這是我目前唯一能說的話。

真正當起retinal surgeon,我才發現自己是過度保守的。visual prognosis要夠好、夠有把握,我才願意開。因為不願在羽翼未豐之際就夭折。但漸漸的,我膽小了,當初那個意氣風發的我,早已無處追尋。sigh~何況我們這種科的病人,visual prognosis夠好的又有幾多?

為了完成學業,我繼續在這裡待下來,但是沒有R、沒有OCT跟FAG、也沒有avastin,我覺得自己像是被綁住手的劍客,retinal surgeon?現在的我愧不敢當。

只是想跟學姊訴苦一下。雖然不知道您發生了什麼事。但,請保重、加油!
有次週二到貴院找舍弟,本想上樓找學姊聊聊,但看到門庭若市的樣子,顯然學姊已經忙不開交。改天再找機會親臨拜訪,身為後輩,我有太多問題想向您請教呢!